I’m aware I haven’t posted anything for a while and I’ve been contemplating whether to publish this blog post however as this is relevant to today I felt it would be best to write and post!
Over the last few months our lecturer has been advising us to organise ourselves and prepare for the oncoming months of March and April as we have the opportunity to go out on work placements to gain real world experience in Graphic Design. There are three types of employment in Graphic Design:
-Working in an agency (taking on work from external clients as part of a team)
-Working in-house (being part of the Graphic Design team for one large company)
-Freelance (working for yourself with external clients on a project by project basis)
I’ve always been keen to try my hand at everything and with little experience in the world of Graphic Design I’m not sure which would suit me best! I am currently pursuing freelance as we have to have a ‘plan’ for the near future at University to pass our modules and I see this as a good challenge to set myself! I am currently taking part in the Evolve programme, a business development programme, as part of this, however I’ll save the details on that for another post! I decided in relation to work experience that I would like to work in an agency or in-house and looked at local places that could offer me this opportunity. If we did not wish to go out on work experience the university offers us live placements, where we can complete work for local businesses within small groups within the familiar environment of the university.
Today we were all required to go into University to confirm whether we had a placement set up or if we were going to take part in the live briefs and if so, who we would be working with.
Recently I have been struggling to have confidence in my ability to design to an acceptable standard. It’s strange, I know I have the capability and I enjoy designing however when faced with the thought of advertising myself to potential clients or going into a professional studio surrounded by people who all appear to know what they were doing seemed to really unnerve me. Even with my university work I have felt mediocre and like I would not make it in the professional world. Opening up about this has been difficult however I eventually spoke with a couple of tutors who reassured me everything I was doing was right and they weren’t worried about me. I still don’t feel reassured and I know the best thing for me to do right now would be to put myself into a professional studio setting so it doesn’t seem like such an alien environment to me however I don’t seem to be able to muster up the courage to make that first call. Because of this it has been a difficult few months for me and I have learnt a lot about myself, specifically how I deal with the lows and how I can still see the bigger picture even if it does feel impossibly far away! Although it’s easier to say in hindsight, I have got a plan for if I ever feel like this again!
With all these thoughts in my head I walked into my studio today very nervous and as though I had let myself down by not securing a placement and that I would not get anything out of the next couple of months. I was then called up to speak with the tutors and meet my fellow team members and discover what live project we had been assigned – I was a nervous wreck! Though, as soon as the words cardiopulmonary clinic was mentioned I immediately relaxed, strangely enough as I already work as a patient administrator at a medical company, healthcare is my comfort zone! As we were prepped on what was asked for I began to feel excited for the challenge ahead! I now feel a lot more positive about the live brief we have been given and I can’t wait to work alongside my team members, some of who I have already worked with on other projects and had placed in my ‘dream team’ scenario! I almost feel ridiculous for getting myself so worked up beforehand!
In conclusion, the last few months (and today especially!) has taught me to not get as worked up about what I am doing and if I’m doing it well enough. I overthink and compare myself to others which I mustn’t do as we all have different ideas and final goals! This won’t be something I can overcome instantly however I am actively working on building my self-confidence! One day soon I will make that phone call and will get myself the placement I should have got.
I am looking forward to seeing what this live brief brings and developing my skills and confidence as I progress through to the end of my second year! Now I just need to get the confidence in myself to push my business to potential clients!
PS – I have posted this as the content is an important insight of my journey to becoming a Graphic Designer! As this post may not look good to potential employers/clients, it may be removed.